Posted in Finding Yourself, purpose, seasons, victory, Woman

Go Get Her! 

It’s been awhile since I have blogged. Life has been mentally busy for me. With the new year coming,  I’ve basically decided to start my new year now.  I mean, why wait?  I’ve also decided to adopt the phrase, “New Year, New Mindset”, because I will always be “me”, but “me” won’t become better unless my mind changes. (Tshirt coming soon). So I’m investing in myself, mentally. I’m ditching the past for the future. In all honesty, I’m scared. This moment has always been a thought, and now it’s happening. But I’m willing to take the risk of becoming the woman God has called me to be.

Some other things I am doing is writing my first book, and my first curriculum for God-Shaped Curriculum. How exciting! My hopes are to find a new adventure here in my new city, Charlotte, and enjoy life. But most of all I desire to have breakthroughs in my personal life. I’m excited to be partnering with God on this.

Why am I blabbing on about what I call my #GreatThingsIn18? Well, because I want you to GO-GET-HER! You are worth finding and worth loving. What is it that you want? What are God’s promises over your life? Have you written them down yet? Go-Get-Her! You are worth it! You were born to discover who you are, who God is, and fulfill your purpose in the Earth. And it’s all possible. So Go-Get-Her!

Love, Angel

Posted in Finding Yourself, hope, Inspiration, purpose, seasons

Held Back


I remember one of the most devastating times of my childhood. I missed the last part of my second grade year because of the chicken pox. Boo! But that wasn’t the devastation. All I remember was my siblings coming home on the last day of school and my mom informing me that I would be repeating the second grade. I then remember the first day of school of repeating the second grade. The fear and the embarrassment of my old classmates seeing me in the second grade hall and me seeing them in the third grade hall was a sheer nightmare. I had been held back because of my inability to learn. I was a bright kid. I loved learning, but for some reason I didn’t make the cut.

I’m just realizing how much this has effected my life. I see the pattern of my inability to learn in a specific season, only having to go back and have to repeat that season again. Being held back told me I was no good, unable, not smart enough, and inadequate. I believed it and followed suit. I pretended to be dumb at times to avoid being rejected again. I wouldn’t allow myself to be great. And years later I’m still digging myself out of the holes of these lies, and it isn’t easy.

Maybe something similar happened to you. I know it’s difficult to rewire yourself. But there is a real you. That real you has been made by God from the beginning of time since the day you were born. God has a specific plan for you, and maybe life has caused you to think differently. Cease to strive. Breathe! Relax!  Take a moment to ask God “Who am I, really?” “Who did you originally make me to be before all this happened?” Allow Him to redirect and reverse every lie; or every attempt that tries to make you less than who He has meant for you to be.

Posted in the Proverbs 31 Woman, Virtue, Woman

Virtue… It’s Rare


Who can find a virtuous woman? For her price is far beyond rubies. Proverbs 31:10

Good things can be found, but rare things…well,  you’ll have to do a little digging. There are about 3.7 billion females in the world, that’s 49.6% of the population. So it’s easy to find a woman. But a woman of  Virtue…? Who can find this rare creature? She is said to be more precious than diamonds, which depending on how many carats you have, it can be priced at $10,000 per carat. She is far more precious than Rubies, because of the nature of color, can be priced at $15,000 per carat. And my favorite, the Pearl,  a strand can be sold for $100,000. But a virtuous woman…priceless! She has a value beyond price! 

Why Is Virtue So High Priced

Diamonds, Rubies, and Pearls, Oh My! It’s not the price that amazes me, but the formation of these jewels are astonishing. All formed in hiding. Each of these jewels can stand on its own, sustaining their value, and depending on its owner,  can remain of value if taken care of properly. But imagine a woman placed in the hands of God. Her value increases the longer she stays hidden in Him. The more she learns to know him, the more she learns herself, and begins to develop this characteristic.

Virtue IS Attainable 

Women run from this virtue because they mistake it with perfection. Not one of us is perfect…but God is! When we hide in him, not cowardly, but courageously…we are perfectly formed. 

When you’re hidden in Christ it’s hard to be devalued, because you know who you are. You know you are his. 

 You’re a Masterpiece formed perfectly by him, able to shine and do all he’s created you for. 

For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago. Ephesians 2:10

When you are hidden in Christ your life conforms to moral and right living; all because you are growing to be more and more like Him. So when you come out of hiding…like any valuable jewel…you cannot go unnoticed. 

What Keeps us from Virtue? 

One word… COMMON. People don’t find value in being themselves anymore. God made us to be rare, and to be ourselves.  They’d rather be common. So, they take another route: finding themselves in magazines, TV drama, work, Google, or social media. None of this lasts. You lose your value being someone else, or being something outside of who God intended you to be. The most successful people are those who are themselves. Do the research. No one likes a copy cat. 

Shine

Shine baby shine. You really were made to shine. There’s nothing dim about Virtue. It is brilliant! Virtue is excellent…it excels! It cause your head to be held high. Once you are formed you’ll be displayed beautifully for all the world to behold. Graced. Marveled. Admired. You will shine. And because you’re virtuous you’ll remain humble, modest, bold and beautiful.

Never run from Virtue again. Understand that it is attainable through the working of a great God who sees you, knows you, and lives you! 

Posted in anger, root, seasons

“A” is for Angry

I laughed as I blurted out `”A” is for Angry!` I meant every bit of it too! It just sounded so funny when I said it. Probably because I spoke something I had internalized for quite some time. I’ve been studying my personality, and the man teaching told the audience to say an alliterative adjective that describes how you feel and starts with the same letter as your name…without thinking. So, without thinking, and from the abundance of my heart I yelled out, “A” is for Angry 😡 

This isn’t an attempt to collect self pity or attention from you, but when I first started  this blog I told you that this journey we are on won’t always be easy, but always honest. So as my sister, I’m letting you know this is where I am. Not at people, not at God… Its just that this particular season is aggravating and very aggressive. Built and pinned up emotions flaring everywhere, and people only cause the flames to increase, unknowingly, so I try to stay clear, which is nearly impossible, being a minister and all. This is probably one of the reasons God moved me away from all I know to be alone with Him. This season is wrecking me and I can’t win unless I participate in it. It’s something I have to go through, not just get over it. 

As I mentioned above, I’ve been studying my personality and as a person with a phlegmatic/melancholy personality, I need to know what the heck is going on. The unknown is not a unfamiliar place for me but it is a place I can honestly say that I hate. Because I desire to allow God to lead my life and direct me, I’m pretty much aware of the “what” but not the “why”. Not fun! So this season I’m in is ticking me off. If you were a fly on the wall, you’d think this sistah is mad. I am, and I have the slightest idea of what to do but be mad.

This isn’t a bad thing. The Bible tells us 

In your anger sin not. Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry. Ephesians 4:26

God knows that His children get angry. So I do my best to go to the Lord with every issue that arises. I have issues.  And sitting at the root of all my issues is Anger. It just now rising up to the surface. Oh, it’s been there. I was just too afraid to say it.  For example: right now I’m struggling with the fact that I don’t know my life’s purpose. Yes, I serve in the church, I have a blog, I’m in school, live in a nice city,  I’ve made an album… Blah, Blah, Blah…deep inside me i can’t help but think that there’s more. I feel like a human “doing”, not a human”being”.  It angers me that I know I have so much more in me but can’t tap into it. I feel like a slave. Once again this is no one’s fault. I go where I’m needed. But I feel cheated in life and feel like I deserve more. I look at my past and remember how happy I was when I had direction. But now life feels like a waste. Because I know I can ramble I’ll stop here. But these are my truths. I’m not in the mood for optimism or self-help coaching, this is spiritual and honestly only God can help me. Now THAT I am very aware of. 

I tell you all this because I know there is an “A” is for Awesome coming my way, and I can only get there if I walk this season out. There’s no running in this season for me. I remember having a hip flexer injury in high school because of a growth spurt. I was growing too fast.  I had to sit out for a week and couldn’t participate in track practices or meets. Oh I was so mad. I couldn’t run?  I had to walk around and watch everyone else enjoy what I loved so much. And that’s where I am. Dealing with the root anger will one day bring me joy, just like dealing with the healing of my hip flexer injury helped me to have an excellent season.  

I’m not angry because “I am this way”, there was a season for that, but I’m this way because “I’m angry”. That bothers me. 

 Do you see the difference? There was a time where I focused on what was wrong with me, not knowing I was angry.  I have an anger problem right now. The issues can only be solved if the root is dealt with. I pray that we can allow God to deal with our roots so we can live in purpose and on on purpose. Be courageous sis. Don’t be afraid to face what God brings to the surface of your life. Blurt it out! Laugh at it and walk through the process of healing.  One day we can say thank you God for helping me through that season.

 I love you! 

Posted in beauty, Inspiration

The Ugly Season 

🐛 We all have a ugly phases in life. Even the most beautiful people in life. Mine was 6th  to 7th grade. Now for all my optimistic people, maybe I should say “rough”, but since its my blog… 😊. Middle School was an ugly season for me. I didn’t know how to smile. I was scrawny and lanky. Long hair was in and I didn’t have much…until I discovered weave. I’d just added me one single piece to the back and called it a day.  Boys teased me almost every day. I absolutely hated it. I wasn’t sure in who I wanted to be. I was picked on for being a church girl. This stopped around 7th grade when I began to play sports. I got out of my tomboy phase my sophomore year…finally! My body of course changed into a beautiful athletic build, boys gave me attention, and sports gave me a reason to hold my head up. It’s been over 20 years, and I hadn’t felt like that…until this season  of my life. 

Age 37, overweight, searching for purpose. The enemy constantly teasing and accusing. Just the other day I said, “God, I never felt so ugly, so hopeless, and useless.” Now,  I’m not just talking about the lack of beauty, but in the sense of feeling. I feel…unpleasant while everything around me says “beauty”. 

How Does God Respond? 

While walking my puppy,  she discovers that her favorite tree has taken on some new friends. I quickly yank her away not knowing what they were at first. But at closer glance, they were only caterpillars. In which I think are ugly. So I take a picture and post it saying, “Sick 😝🤢“. I thought everyone would agree, but people begin to tell stories only of beauty. This automatically made me feel bad. Am I so consumed with what I feel is a “Ugly Season” that everything around me is now ugly? As a precious friend explained,

I remembered what I had told God the day before.  He heard me, probably laughed or smiled. He loves me enough to send imagery and wisdom from others. That’s my God. Opening my eyes to His reality.  

Yet God has made everything beautiful for its own time. Ecclesiastes 3:11

What a beautiful scripture. Encouragement for those going through the “ugly season”, rough patch, or process. There is a promise on the other side. May God give you a reason to hold your head up high.🦋 

Posted in Uncategorized

I See You

I see you Angel. I see you and I ask “What happened to the sparkle in your eyes?” I see you and I ask, “What happened to that innocent smile?” Pain has pierced you. Rejection has ripped you. But you are still here. And I say, “I see you.” Yes, people have used you. Some may have abused you, but YOU Are Still Here. Some think they know you, others have ignored you, but YOU ARE STILL HERE! And I see you!!! I see you through God’s eyes. I see you through broken dreams. I see you through heartache and I see you through unseen tears. I see you! 

You are STRONG and you are SIGNIFICANT! You are PURE and you are PERSISTENT!  You are CARING and you are very very COURAGEOUS!  You always know how to bounce back! You are a Finisher and you are a Warrior. You were born to win…born in a womb of VICTORY! I SEE YOU!!! You have always been there! 😊