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The Ugly Season 

🐛 We all have a ugly phases in life. Even the most beautiful people in life. Mine was 6th  to 7th grade. Now for all my optimistic people, maybe I should say “rough”, but since its my blog… 😊. Middle School was an ugly season for me. I didn’t know how to smile. I was scrawny and lanky. Long hair was in and I didn’t have much…until I discovered weave. I’d just added me one single piece to the back and called it a day.  Boys teased me almost every day. I absolutely hated it. I wasn’t sure in who I wanted to be. I was picked on for being a church girl. This stopped around 7th grade when I began to play sports. I got out of my tomboy phase my sophomore year…finally! My body of course changed into a beautiful athletic build, boys gave me attention, and sports gave me a reason to hold my head up. It’s been over 20 years, and I hadn’t felt like that…until this season  of my life. 

Age 37, overweight, searching for purpose. The enemy constantly teasing and accusing. Just the other day I said, “God, I never felt so ugly, so hopeless, and useless.” Now,  I’m not just talking about the lack of beauty, but in the sense of feeling. I feel…unpleasant while everything around me says “beauty”. 

How Does God Respond? 

While walking my puppy,  she discovers that her favorite tree has taken on some new friends. I quickly yank her away not knowing what they were at first. But at closer glance, they were only caterpillars. In which I think are ugly. So I take a picture and post it saying, “Sick 😝🤢“. I thought everyone would agree, but people begin to tell stories only of beauty. This automatically made me feel bad. Am I so consumed with what I feel is a “Ugly Season” that everything around me is now ugly? As a precious friend explained,

I remembered what I had told God the day before.  He heard me, probably laughed or smiled. He loves me enough to send imagery and wisdom from others. That’s my God. Opening my eyes to His reality.  

Yet God has made everything beautiful for its own time. Ecclesiastes 3:11

What a beautiful scripture. Encouragement for those going through the “ugly season”, rough patch, or process. There is a promise on the other side. May God give you a reason to hold your head up high.🦋