R.E.S.I.D.U.E and You


Hello my beautiful sisters! Will you journey with me today?

You ever get that song in your head after something takes place? Maybe that’s just me. Everything has a song when it comes to my over imaginative mind. I just stepped out to walk my dog Bethany and the song lyrics, “I can see clearly now, the rain is gone” , popped in my head. Lol! Yep, for the past two days it’s been raining non-stop, until today.  And proof is everywhere. The remnant of its massive downpour has left debris everywhere! Some recognizable artifacts, and others unrecognizable. I see myself interested in the unrecognizable for some odd reason. I wonder to myself, ‘Where in the world did you come from?’ This residue, despite its audacity to be in my way, has its reasons for being there. Left there because of current happenings…it’s there.  A storm.


Storms always leave something behind. Pain, fear, disaster. In my case, a brown, odd shaped, unrecognizable thingy. I wasn’t quite sure what it was but it’s there. Actually, tons of them were lying around. I get grossed out pretty quick, but in my attempt to step over it and keep walking I bravely decided to take a closer look. But to my amazement something beautiful occurred. In each step I discovered that storms may come to destroy, but we can never forget that what was destroyed or whatever remains, once had beauty to it…and there’s hope that it can recover and be restored.

My Journey, My Mission

Angel Penn of Experience His Freedom Blog, is so graciously allowing myself and a few other women share her platform in the month of May. She inspired us to choose a woman of influence from the Bible. Nope, I am not going to tell you who I chose, nor the choices of the other ladies. All I will say is you and your friends need to head over to https://www.angelpenn.com/biblical-women-of-influence/ . Starting May 7th your life will forever be blessed. God is ready to do some heavy healing  and inspiring in the lives of the women He loves, and that’s you boo!

With all that being said, as I blogged on my woman of experience, I was inspired again to step up and start speaking up on my passion. This passion is to encourage women who have been abused in any kind of way, to LIVE! This isn’t something I don’t know about. As a victim of of sexual abuse myself, I understand how difficult it is to pick up and do life once it’s been taken away from you. Whether it’s sexual, physical, verbal, or mental abuse…any abnormal use of your life, it can cause you to completely lose yourself or your identity. Even now as I am typing I ache because I know I’m not the only one not fully living because of someones careless act. But I come to give you hope today, there is hope. And it’s found in trusting God. When we realize that He loves us, and He is our Father, and that He has a beautiful plan for our lives…that plan is not to harm or hurt us, but to give us a hope and a future…then ladies, we will NEVER be the same. There is beauty in our ashes…in our residue. All we have to do is hand it over to Him…and trust Him.

God Uses Storms


Residue~Something that remains after a part is removed, disposed of or used.

You remember that deluge I talked to you about earlier? well lets go a step further. As I continued to walk further I saw another item on the ground that showed some resemblance to the first item I encountered. At a closer glance, yes, yes it was the same thing as before, but it hadn’t yet changed colors. It still held on to its state of orange and yellow beauty. Though surrounded by the evidence of the storm it still had hope.

If I can be honest, I believe this is where I am in my life. I am beginning to hope again. It has been revealed that I have lived most of my life trying to find myself. My true self…adventurous, sensitive, shy, loving, curious, creative and kind…has dwindled over the years because of storms. Storms that have left debris i wouldn’t wish on anyone. The only thing I knew to do was to cover it up with anything that would keep people from hurting me again. Though it’s never easy to admit things like that, I am so thankful I am becoming more and more free…and now I can speak it out. God never intended for us to hide. As we become His, and accept Jesus as our Lord and Savoir,we must know that God does not want us to stay the same. I don’t want to stay the same. So when God moved me from everything I knew in 2016, to  be alone with Him; He began, and still is, cleaning up residue. I can’t begin to tell you what it all is. Things I didn’t even know surrounded my broken heart. Yes, I had a broken heart…and if God didn’t pull me out of my physical place, Louisiana (using an actual flood) and bring me to Charlotte…I can almost guarantee you, I’d be headed towards a broken life. I was barely hanging on. Friends could no longer sustain me. Talents could no longer hide me. I was sitting alive in church and dying. I was headed towards a wasted life…and fast. God was ready to do some clean up!


Residue can come in many ways. But it can only come when something is removed. Something has to be taken away. This can be in a bad way; in my case, sexual abuse. In a good way; and again in my case God removing me from a particular environment. Either way its the removal of a thing that leaves residue. When it comes to our Enemy and residue…he totally wants to destroy us, and bring us harm. Thankfully, God tells us through the story Joseph,

“You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives” (Exodus 50:20)


As many times I have read or heard this Scripture, it has never sounded so sweet and refreshing to me. The enemy wants to harm us ladies. I have seen him harm so many of my sisters and friends to no return, but God wants to give us life. He wants to bring us good. I am not all the way sure of my life and what my future holds, but I do know it brings hope. God’s removal brings hope to the residue that remains. Those things lying around…that are left to be dealt with are not for you to clean up on your own. They are for you to partner up with God. He wants to see you free and alive. What we go through isn’t just for us, but for others. We can spot other peoples residue because we remember what ours looked like. When we allow God to help us clean up our lives here are a few things that happen:

Rebirth- We are given new life! And it’s more beautiful than you can image.

Expectancy- You will begin to hope, dream and expect for good things to happen to you and for you again.

Surprise- God wants to surpass what you can even imagine for your life! Just say “Hey God, Surprise me!” And He will!!!

Identity- To be like, sound like, look like, and think like Christ is the Christians ultimate goal. I want to be just like my Father in Heaven. And I can have that through Christ, where my life is found. (Read Colossians 3:3)

Desire- The closer we get to God, the more we see His heart. The more we see His heart, the more we see His plans and desires for our lives. That’s honestly all most of us want. With His plans, we don’t have to waste time looking for our own. (Read Psalm 37:4)

Uniqueness- We all have a unique story. That uniqueness isn’t just for you, but for others. Remember, Joseph told us in Exodus 50:20 that what he went through was for the saving of lives. Ask God to show you how to use your story to save lives. The wise save lives! (Read Proverbs 11:30)

Eternal Life- There’s more beyond this life. God has a resting place and home for us with Him in Heaven. I can’t wait to go. Until then our work isn’t done. Our story can help others find Eternal Life with God too. Don’t get discouraged, do the work. Eternal life awaits us.

Ladies, I hope this blessed you like it did me. Go back and look at the pictures I posted. They are actual pictures I took today, and they blessed me. I want to live. I know God has so much more work He has to do in my life. I am willing to participate. Life right now may seem dried up, useless,  and even dead looking to you like that first picture, but like the second picture know that there is yet hope…regardless of the residue that surrounds your life; partner with God, allow him to clean things up. Don’t hide anything. Open your heart to Him, and like the last picture…you will bloom! I love you!

Until our next journey….

Where did the Lie Begin in Your Life


Hello sister, it’s evening and I’m hitting the sack pretty early, but before I slip into la la land, I have a question to ask…hold up let me sip some of this good ole Yogi Caramel Bedtime tea.

Ok I’m back! So, my question is where did the lies in your life begin. I ask this because you all know recently I celebrated my 38th Birthday. I took God on His offer… I got up, picked up my mat, and I’m walking now. Walking is quiet a experience, especially if you haven’t in a long time. Walking helps you to think. You hear more and see more. Many of you probably haven’t been sitting like I have…maybe you’ve been running and haven’t had the time to slow down. In the great words of Medea, “Get somewhere and SAT down!” lol!

I’ve had the opportunity in these short few days to see what’s in me…what’s around me. What belongs and what doesn’t. And I’m noticing that the things that don’t belong are all built on the same thing…a lie. Lies are life changers. I mean they are cruel…down right mean. If you believe them… IT’S OVER!! Well, that’s if you don’t correct them.

I’m correcting 30 year old lies. I ask God where it began. When He shows me, I repent for believing it over His TRUTHS, and then I hand it over to Him. It no longer has permission or authority to rule me. It’s not always easy to uproot them, but that’s why God has given us each other, to love pray and support each other.

Can you think of a specific area of your life that is rooted in a lie?

My prayer is that everyone who reads this blog will be able to see clearly any lie that has caused them to live beneath all God has created them to be. I’m thanking God for your freedom right now, in Jesus’ Name, Amen.

OK, the tea is kicking in!!! Night Night😊

Hey you… Yes you

Hey you! Pay close attention.  #YouAreEnough maybe you can’t whip up the courage to believe it right now…Life threw you a curve ball this year, right? I understand. May you got divorced, separated, cheated on, lost some friends…

But don’t let that determine who “You” are! Another person’s choice or decision should not dictate who #You are. It shouldn’t make you go out and try to become something you are not. That’s what we do right?

We pile on things to make it seem like we’re accomplished, trying to prove to that person “I got it together boo”. We become this complete stranger, only to be let down more. 

We become defiant, rebellious, bitter, etc. And we feel everyone is against us, right? 

Let’s try something new. Gather yourself….and Let God transform your mind and you find yourself in him. Not the decisions of others. You can do this! #YouAreBetterThanThis It gets #Better So much better! 

Great Things are coming!!! #GreatThingsIn18


God says you are worth it! Knowing your worth gives you new eyes to see. Knowing your worth breaks every lie the enemy has spoken over you and keeps you out of sabotaging relationships. Know that your true worth is found with Christ in God. Take His paths towards finding value! #ItsWorthIt


Do something different. Currently I am making adjustments in my life. One of those things are consistency in working out regularly. For two weeks I have worked out 4-5 times a week. Today God said, “How about going running?” And of course I didn’t want to, but lately I have sensed a calling to trust over my life. Meaning if God suggests it…I do it! That includes becoming a vegetarian. He knows why, and I don’t have to know why. Following this has transformed me not just physically but spiritually. There’s freedom in being obedience and trusting God… AND freedom in switching things up and doing something different. I highly recommend it! Plus it shows everyone around me that I love Him! 😊

But I do as the Father has commanded me, so that the world may know that I love the Father. Rise, let us go from here. – John 14:31

What’s Your Mountain

“You were assigned this mountain to show others it can be moved.” – Unknown 

This quote blew my mind as I read it on a gentleman’s blog! I actually started dancing at work when I saw it. Of course it reminded me of what Jesus said in Mark 11:23, ” I tell you the truth, you can say to the mountain…” And then I begin thinking  of the mountains I face…Are they there for me to conquer, so I can help others see they can do the same? Many people don’t realize they can do something until it’s proven in the lives of others. I smile at mountains now, with plans in hand,  ready to conquer. 

What are your mountains? Let’s decided 2GetHer TODAY! We’re gonna tell it to move. And then we’re gonna show others how to do the same!!!!! 

You need to Get up and Get Out! 

“You stay where you wanna stay!” – Real Talk Kim                                       

 It’s been suggested once that my approach can seem a bit insensitive concerning the feelings of others who are dealing with things I haven’t been through, but if you really knew me and my heart to see women free, you’d know that even if the issue you deal with is something I’ve been through or not, its the residue left behind from that particular issue that I have a problem with, not the person. It’s about what’s BEING done to you that gets me tee’d off.  Don’t let my quietness during a conversation, my asking of questions, or referral to Scripture seem like judgment or lack of passion.  It’s the schemes of the enemy that pisses me off. How he gets us to buy into his stupid lies.  How he has women claiming things that aren’t theirs.  How he has us not knowing our authority in Christ, and passive in our movement. We stay stuck for years, blaming others, the world and God! We have a enemy who we have learned to tolerate. And until we learn to have a perfect hatred for our enemy like David had for his, Satan will continue to bully us until he completes his only job, which is to utterly steal, kill, and destroy! How good of a job is he doing in your life? 

 This Generation

This generation has canceled out who Satan is in the Earth. They no longer make known his doings; they blame themselves; sickness and disease are only known to be natural and no longer spiritual with root causes; we fight against each other…not him. You guys! Can’t you see what we are lacking? The basics of the Word of God. Scripture backs up everyone of these situations.

This generation of believers tend to be a little lost, I will explain this more in my “How big is your But?” blog. We have denied our rights to be healed, set free, and delivered. I’m talking about my generation. And we can have every excuse about who did what… But guess what,  that solves nothing and also proves what I just said, we deny Christ the opportunity to be all that He can be…at least for our lives. Unbelief easily blocks what God has for us! But God’s not gonna stop working for those who do believe. And you know who they are. You know those Believers, the ones with Joy, even though they are or are not going through something. The ones willing to go out and spread the gospel for real-for real. The ones not fixated on themselves. The ones you scoff at and secretly bet they have to be faking or being religious, cause there ain’t no way they can have all that peace or joy. Yes they can! And the reason they have, is because they have received what Christ has offered and have no excuses! They Got up!   Jesus still heals and delivers. I’m not just talking about sickness and disease; but mindsets, disorders, demons, etc. It’s sad that healing or deliverance for the Believer is straight up unheard of or even unacceptable in the church, and has become second nature to us.

 Why am I talking about this today? Because I was thinking about why we aren’t like the people the in the Bible…the ones Jesus healed, and delivered. And and when I read their stories over and over again, they have these three things in common : 1.) They WENT after it, 2.) They WANTED it. 3.) They BELIEVED Jesus could do it! Do we? 

He Was Lame

John 5 tells us of the man who had been lame for over 38 years. But guess what:

  1. Everyone there was in the same situation he was in. 

2. He had his excuses, but when Jesus offered healing,  he could have continued to give an excuse but didn’t. 

3. He recieved what was offered and then… he got up! And everyone else stayed right where they were. 

Jesus is willing to heal you, but are you willing to receive it and then get up and walk…regardless of how long its been? 

38 Years…Aint gonna happen boo? 🤔

I love this story so much because I can relate. I decided at the age of guess what…age 37, to get up and Get Out! It took some time and some small steps. Y’all, I ain’t waitin by nobodies pool to be healed. I refuse to go into 38 bound! My decision was yesterday while lying in bed. I found myself in a deliverence session, alone and with God. The angels were my elders. I was praying out loud with authority, which is a miracle. You are the first that I’ve ever told this to, but I was always afraid to pray out loud, for myself,  fearing that Satan would hear me and hurt me. Yes, me Angel, the fearless warrior! I’m letting you in… we’re on a journey for growth together, right? I can pray for everyone else, but not me. Yes that WAS  me…until God gave me a specific dream  and followed it up with confirmation the following morning when my pastor preached a message about Jumpers. Long story short, I’m no longer afraid, so somebody better beware.               I begin to see the great sacrifice Jesus paid for me on the Cross, and the benefits… how dare I waste it! I want you to know that His death wasn’t just for me, but for you. Will you recieve it? I want you to get up and get out! But there’s someone else who needs to get out too! 

5 Ways to Get Up and Get Out            (Refer to Psalm 139:12, 19-22)

Shine Down Your Light From Heaven Lord                                                               (verse 12)

1. Ask God to shine His light on you and in you. 

I begin praying over myself. Casting out everything I could think of. Things or spirits I feared, things from my past, anything I felt has attached itself to me, and everything God would reveal to me. I would ask God to shine light on me, and reveal everything that’s hiding. You see sis, God sees everything. We can’t hide from Him and neither can Satan,

When God reveals truth or sin, please don’t be afraid to move forward in healing. Shame may poke its ugly head up, but let God’s truth cast it out, and you move forward in victory! 

Get Out Of My Life You Murderer!               (Verse 19) 

2. Tell the Enemy to get out! 

 And mean it! Be brave tell your enemy to get the heck out!  David did it best!  He had no room or time for his enemies, and with authority told them to leave. I may have seemed crazy, or sounded crazy. I’m pretty sure my puppy was wondering why mommy was yelling. But no! Satan will not bully me any longer. 

That Ain’t The God I Serve                            (Verse 20)

3. Know who God is to you. Know that He loves you and is for you. Reverence and speak highly of God before your accuser Satan. He can’t stand it. He hates you and God. He has no reverence for God, and speak lies of what God can be to and for you. Do not believe his lives. Keep pressing. 

You better ask somebody                             (Verse. 21)

4. Don’t be afraid to ask God questions. He’s your Father. Didn’t He tell us to “Ask and it will be given to you.” (Mathew 7:7). You better get your answer girl. Just make sure you patiently wait for your answer. I would say, “Is there anything else God?”  And He would sometimes automatically show me. Don’t be afraid. We have a good Father in Heaven who loves us, but doesn’t want us to stay the same. Ask! 

Make God’s Enemies Your Enemies           (Verse 22)

5. As I mentioned before, I was afraid of the Devil. He’s been bullying me since I was 5. That only means to me that he knows something. I mean he’s tried to KILL me in my mother’s womb. At 5 years old he’s tried to STEAL my identity through molestation.  And at 11 years old he tried to DESTROY  me with Cancer! Come on!!! There ain’t no way homeboy ain’t upset about my destiny!!! He’s going all out to get rid of me. HE IS MY ENEMY! He wants my life. 

I know you’re tired of fighting. But Satan wants your life. And you have to want your life more than he does. That’s how you win! ~Angel Victoria 

Do you hate him enough to fight back? Do you hate him with a perfect hatred? Do you want to walk in victory against your enemy? Well then GET UP AND GET OUT! Come out of that dungeon of depression and despair! Walk up out that pit of poverty! Turn and run away fast from that luring lake of lust! Stake your claim as a Child of God, and walk in the authority Christ so willingly and graciously paid for! You can do it sis! I love you and I’m pray for all who read this. For the boldness and courage to come from where you are and live and remain free! In Jesus’s Powerful Name. Amen!