Hello my beautiful sisters! Will you journey with me today?
You ever get that song in your head after something takes place? Maybe that’s just me. Everything has a song when it comes to my over imaginative mind. I just stepped out to walk my dog Bethany and the song lyrics, “I can see clearly now, the rain is gone” , popped in my head. Lol! Yep, for the past two days it’s been raining non-stop, until today. And proof is everywhere. The remnant of its massive downpour has left debris everywhere! Some recognizable artifacts, and others unrecognizable. I see myself interested in the unrecognizable for some odd reason. I wonder to myself, ‘Where in the world did you come from?’ This residue, despite its audacity to be in my way, has its reasons for being there. Left there because of current happenings…it’s there. A storm.
Storms always leave something behind. Pain, fear, disaster. In my case, a brown, odd shaped, unrecognizable thingy. I wasn’t quite sure what it was but it’s there. Actually, tons of them were lying around. I get grossed out pretty quick, but in my attempt to step over it and keep walking I bravely decided to take a closer look. But to my amazement something beautiful occurred. In each step I discovered that storms may come to destroy, but we can never forget that what was destroyed or whatever remains, once had beauty to it…and there’s hope that it can recover and be restored.
My Journey, My Mission
Angel Penn of Experience His Freedom Blog, is so graciously allowing myself and a few other women share her platform in the month of May. She inspired us to choose a woman of influence from the Bible. Nope, I am not going to tell you who I chose, nor the choices of the other ladies. All I will say is you and your friends need to head over to https://www.angelpenn.com/biblical-women-of-influence/ . Starting May 7th your life will forever be blessed. God is ready to do some heavy healing and inspiring in the lives of the women He loves, and that’s you boo!
With all that being said, as I blogged on my woman of experience, I was inspired again to step up and start speaking up on my passion. This passion is to encourage women who have been abused in any kind of way, to LIVE! This isn’t something I don’t know about. As a victim of of sexual abuse myself, I understand how difficult it is to pick up and do life once it’s been taken away from you. Whether it’s sexual, physical, verbal, or mental abuse…any abnormal use of your life, it can cause you to completely lose yourself or your identity. Even now as I am typing I ache because I know I’m not the only one not fully living because of someones careless act. But I come to give you hope today, there is hope. And it’s found in trusting God. When we realize that He loves us, and He is our Father, and that He has a beautiful plan for our lives…that plan is not to harm or hurt us, but to give us a hope and a future…then ladies, we will NEVER be the same. There is beauty in our ashes…in our residue. All we have to do is hand it over to Him…and trust Him.
God Uses Storms
Residue~Something that remains after a part is removed, disposed of or used.
You remember that deluge I talked to you about earlier? well lets go a step further. As I continued to walk further I saw another item on the ground that showed some resemblance to the first item I encountered. At a closer glance, yes, yes it was the same thing as before, but it hadn’t yet changed colors. It still held on to its state of orange and yellow beauty. Though surrounded by the evidence of the storm it still had hope.
If I can be honest, I believe this is where I am in my life. I am beginning to hope again. It has been revealed that I have lived most of my life trying to find myself. My true self…adventurous, sensitive, shy, loving, curious, creative and kind…has dwindled over the years because of storms. Storms that have left debris i wouldn’t wish on anyone. The only thing I knew to do was to cover it up with anything that would keep people from hurting me again. Though it’s never easy to admit things like that, I am so thankful I am becoming more and more free…and now I can speak it out. God never intended for us to hide. As we become His, and accept Jesus as our Lord and Savoir,we must know that God does not want us to stay the same. I don’t want to stay the same. So when God moved me from everything I knew in 2016, to be alone with Him; He began, and still is, cleaning up residue. I can’t begin to tell you what it all is. Things I didn’t even know surrounded my broken heart. Yes, I had a broken heart…and if God didn’t pull me out of my physical place, Louisiana (using an actual flood) and bring me to Charlotte…I can almost guarantee you, I’d be headed towards a broken life. I was barely hanging on. Friends could no longer sustain me. Talents could no longer hide me. I was sitting alive in church and dying. I was headed towards a wasted life…and fast. God was ready to do some clean up!
Residue can come in many ways. But it can only come when something is removed. Something has to be taken away. This can be in a bad way; in my case, sexual abuse. In a good way; and again in my case God removing me from a particular environment. Either way its the removal of a thing that leaves residue. When it comes to our Enemy and residue…he totally wants to destroy us, and bring us harm. Thankfully, God tells us through the story Joseph,
“You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives” (Exodus 50:20)
As many times I have read or heard this Scripture, it has never sounded so sweet and refreshing to me. The enemy wants to harm us ladies. I have seen him harm so many of my sisters and friends to no return, but God wants to give us life. He wants to bring us good. I am not all the way sure of my life and what my future holds, but I do know it brings hope. God’s removal brings hope to the residue that remains. Those things lying around…that are left to be dealt with are not for you to clean up on your own. They are for you to partner up with God. He wants to see you free and alive. What we go through isn’t just for us, but for others. We can spot other peoples residue because we remember what ours looked like. When we allow God to help us clean up our lives here are a few things that happen:
Rebirth- We are given new life! And it’s more beautiful than you can image.
Expectancy- You will begin to hope, dream and expect for good things to happen to you and for you again.
Surprise- God wants to surpass what you can even imagine for your life! Just say “Hey God, Surprise me!” And He will!!!
Identity- To be like, sound like, look like, and think like Christ is the Christians ultimate goal. I want to be just like my Father in Heaven. And I can have that through Christ, where my life is found. (Read Colossians 3:3)
Desire- The closer we get to God, the more we see His heart. The more we see His heart, the more we see His plans and desires for our lives. That’s honestly all most of us want. With His plans, we don’t have to waste time looking for our own. (Read Psalm 37:4)
Uniqueness- We all have a unique story. That uniqueness isn’t just for you, but for others. Remember, Joseph told us in Exodus 50:20 that what he went through was for the saving of lives. Ask God to show you how to use your story to save lives. The wise save lives! (Read Proverbs 11:30)
Eternal Life- There’s more beyond this life. God has a resting place and home for us with Him in Heaven. I can’t wait to go. Until then our work isn’t done. Our story can help others find Eternal Life with God too. Don’t get discouraged, do the work. Eternal life awaits us.
Ladies, I hope this blessed you like it did me. Go back and look at the pictures I posted. They are actual pictures I took today, and they blessed me. I want to live. I know God has so much more work He has to do in my life. I am willing to participate. Life right now may seem dried up, useless, and even dead looking to you like that first picture, but like the second picture know that there is yet hope…regardless of the residue that surrounds your life; partner with God, allow him to clean things up. Don’t hide anything. Open your heart to Him, and like the last picture…you will bloom! I love you!
Until our next journey….