R.E.S.I.D.U.E and You

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Hello my beautiful sisters! Will you journey with me today?

You ever get that song in your head after something takes place? Maybe that’s just me. Everything has a song when it comes to my over imaginative mind. I just stepped out to walk my dog Bethany and the song lyrics, “I can see clearly now, the rain is gone” , popped in my head. Lol! Yep, for the past two days it’s been raining non-stop, until today.  And proof is everywhere. The remnant of its massive downpour has left debris everywhere! Some recognizable artifacts, and others unrecognizable. I see myself interested in the unrecognizable for some odd reason. I wonder to myself, ‘Where in the world did you come from?’ This residue, despite its audacity to be in my way, has its reasons for being there. Left there because of current happenings…it’s there.  A storm.

Storms

Storms always leave something behind. Pain, fear, disaster. In my case, a brown, odd shaped, unrecognizable thingy. I wasn’t quite sure what it was but it’s there. Actually, tons of them were lying around. I get grossed out pretty quick, but in my attempt to step over it and keep walking I bravely decided to take a closer look. But to my amazement something beautiful occurred. In each step I discovered that storms may come to destroy, but we can never forget that what was destroyed or whatever remains, once had beauty to it…and there’s hope that it can recover and be restored.

My Journey, My Mission

Angel Penn of Experience His Freedom Blog, is so graciously allowing myself and a few other women share her platform in the month of May. She inspired us to choose a woman of influence from the Bible. Nope, I am not going to tell you who I chose, nor the choices of the other ladies. All I will say is you and your friends need to head over to https://www.angelpenn.com/biblical-women-of-influence/ . Starting May 7th your life will forever be blessed. God is ready to do some heavy healing  and inspiring in the lives of the women He loves, and that’s you boo!

With all that being said, as I blogged on my woman of experience, I was inspired again to step up and start speaking up on my passion. This passion is to encourage women who have been abused in any kind of way, to LIVE! This isn’t something I don’t know about. As a victim of of sexual abuse myself, I understand how difficult it is to pick up and do life once it’s been taken away from you. Whether it’s sexual, physical, verbal, or mental abuse…any abnormal use of your life, it can cause you to completely lose yourself or your identity. Even now as I am typing I ache because I know I’m not the only one not fully living because of someones careless act. But I come to give you hope today, there is hope. And it’s found in trusting God. When we realize that He loves us, and He is our Father, and that He has a beautiful plan for our lives…that plan is not to harm or hurt us, but to give us a hope and a future…then ladies, we will NEVER be the same. There is beauty in our ashes…in our residue. All we have to do is hand it over to Him…and trust Him.

God Uses Storms

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Residue~Something that remains after a part is removed, disposed of or used.

You remember that deluge I talked to you about earlier? well lets go a step further. As I continued to walk further I saw another item on the ground that showed some resemblance to the first item I encountered. At a closer glance, yes, yes it was the same thing as before, but it hadn’t yet changed colors. It still held on to its state of orange and yellow beauty. Though surrounded by the evidence of the storm it still had hope.

If I can be honest, I believe this is where I am in my life. I am beginning to hope again. It has been revealed that I have lived most of my life trying to find myself. My true self…adventurous, sensitive, shy, loving, curious, creative and kind…has dwindled over the years because of storms. Storms that have left debris i wouldn’t wish on anyone. The only thing I knew to do was to cover it up with anything that would keep people from hurting me again. Though it’s never easy to admit things like that, I am so thankful I am becoming more and more free…and now I can speak it out. God never intended for us to hide. As we become His, and accept Jesus as our Lord and Savoir,we must know that God does not want us to stay the same. I don’t want to stay the same. So when God moved me from everything I knew in 2016, to  be alone with Him; He began, and still is, cleaning up residue. I can’t begin to tell you what it all is. Things I didn’t even know surrounded my broken heart. Yes, I had a broken heart…and if God didn’t pull me out of my physical place, Louisiana (using an actual flood) and bring me to Charlotte…I can almost guarantee you, I’d be headed towards a broken life. I was barely hanging on. Friends could no longer sustain me. Talents could no longer hide me. I was sitting alive in church and dying. I was headed towards a wasted life…and fast. God was ready to do some clean up!

Residue

Residue can come in many ways. But it can only come when something is removed. Something has to be taken away. This can be in a bad way; in my case, sexual abuse. In a good way; and again in my case God removing me from a particular environment. Either way its the removal of a thing that leaves residue. When it comes to our Enemy and residue…he totally wants to destroy us, and bring us harm. Thankfully, God tells us through the story Joseph,

“You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives” (Exodus 50:20)

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As many times I have read or heard this Scripture, it has never sounded so sweet and refreshing to me. The enemy wants to harm us ladies. I have seen him harm so many of my sisters and friends to no return, but God wants to give us life. He wants to bring us good. I am not all the way sure of my life and what my future holds, but I do know it brings hope. God’s removal brings hope to the residue that remains. Those things lying around…that are left to be dealt with are not for you to clean up on your own. They are for you to partner up with God. He wants to see you free and alive. What we go through isn’t just for us, but for others. We can spot other peoples residue because we remember what ours looked like. When we allow God to help us clean up our lives here are a few things that happen:

Rebirth- We are given new life! And it’s more beautiful than you can image.

Expectancy- You will begin to hope, dream and expect for good things to happen to you and for you again.

Surprise- God wants to surpass what you can even imagine for your life! Just say “Hey God, Surprise me!” And He will!!!

Identity- To be like, sound like, look like, and think like Christ is the Christians ultimate goal. I want to be just like my Father in Heaven. And I can have that through Christ, where my life is found. (Read Colossians 3:3)

Desire- The closer we get to God, the more we see His heart. The more we see His heart, the more we see His plans and desires for our lives. That’s honestly all most of us want. With His plans, we don’t have to waste time looking for our own. (Read Psalm 37:4)

Uniqueness- We all have a unique story. That uniqueness isn’t just for you, but for others. Remember, Joseph told us in Exodus 50:20 that what he went through was for the saving of lives. Ask God to show you how to use your story to save lives. The wise save lives! (Read Proverbs 11:30)

Eternal Life- There’s more beyond this life. God has a resting place and home for us with Him in Heaven. I can’t wait to go. Until then our work isn’t done. Our story can help others find Eternal Life with God too. Don’t get discouraged, do the work. Eternal life awaits us.

Ladies, I hope this blessed you like it did me. Go back and look at the pictures I posted. They are actual pictures I took today, and they blessed me. I want to live. I know God has so much more work He has to do in my life. I am willing to participate. Life right now may seem dried up, useless,  and even dead looking to you like that first picture, but like the second picture know that there is yet hope…regardless of the residue that surrounds your life; partner with God, allow him to clean things up. Don’t hide anything. Open your heart to Him, and like the last picture…you will bloom! I love you!

Until our next journey….

We all need laughing buddies!

I actually overslept today. I’m not sure if it’s a good thing, but my body sure did need it. I’m actually still in the bed. I have read the Word, laughed by text with a friend (a much needed laugh… YOU NEED LAUGHING BUDDIES!!!), and now I’m wanting to share my heart with you about, well two things… 1. Facing disappointment and 2. True religion. Sounds like two completely different blogs but it will all make since in a few secs.

So my last blog we celebrated my 38th birthday, my coming out of comfortability…My walking season. Basically my John 5 moment. And I must say, it has been a good 2 weeks. My relationship with God is blossoming. I’m relearning both Him and myself. I’ve taken a lot of pressure off of myself, and learning to do the same with others(thanks to a wonderful message about friends by my pastor). Yet, at the same time I have faced a few disappointments. Some ups and downs. And the enemy wants me to be upset at God for not answering like I wanted Him to. But as my Father and friend, I choose to trust and believe His abilities to sustain my life, and trust His character…that He is FAITHFUL!

Ok, so on to religion. I asked God, “So what was the young man in John 5’s, life like after he was healed by Jesus?” I was wondering, were there bumps in the road? Struggles? Disappointments? Happiness? If you pay close attention; right after he was healed, he came into conflict with religious leaders. They basically wanted to steal Jesus’s shine. The glory of God was reflecting from this young man’s life and they were being a bunch of haters.

So I begin thinking about religion, and its reputation these days…mainly in the church. They call it a religious spirit. I believe it’s a real thing, but I also believe it works in two ways:

1. It keeps people away from God’s truth.

2. It keeps people from being truthful with God.

You see, truth is truth. There are no lies in truth. A Religious spirit has one job… To lie! That’s it! And because people are so fixated on it, they are being lied too! Now you have a watered down Gospel that glorifies wrong doing.

There is a true religion. Jesus talks about it in James 1:27,

Pure, unstained religion, according to God our Father, is to take care of orphans and widows when they suffer and to remain uncorrupted by this world.

A religious spirit offers corruption to the church. Just like those religious leaders tried to offer the young man corruption right after he was healed. They tried to corrupt the very work of God. And if you allow it too, a religious spirit can do the same to you. This is probably why Jesus told the young man,

See, you are well again. Stop sinning or something worse may happen to you.  (John 5:14)

He needed to bring reassurance to the man, reminding him of the miracle that took place. Reassuring him that sin can take you to a place worse than you were before, if you let it. Or if you allow lies to disruption His truth.

With all of this being said, I’d like to encourage you today…. LAUGH! Laugh in the face of your enemy, who is trying to discount the Miracles of Heaven in your life. LAUGH at disappointment, though hard at the moment, do it anyway(My friend Bridgette helped me with that one. Thanks Bridge! ❤️) LAUGH at anything and anyone who would try to take God’s truth away from you…and watch them…well, watch them first feel a little stupid because you’re laughing in their FACE!! LOL!!…then watch them scurry. Like really, LAUGH OUT LOUD!!! Til your face hurts, like mine is right now!

Til next time sisters! ✌🏾

Go Get Her! 

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It’s been awhile since I have blogged. Life has been mentally busy for me. With the new year coming,  I’ve basically decided to start my new year now.  I mean, why wait?  I’ve also decided to adopt the phrase, “New Year, New Mindset”, because I will always be “me”, but “me” won’t become better unless my mind changes. (T-shirt coming soon). So I’m investing in myself, mentally. I’m ditching the past for the future. In all honesty, I’m scared. My past has been my go to person. This moment has always been a thought, and now it’s happening. But I’m willing to take the risk of becoming the woman God has called me to be.

Some other things I am doing is writing my first book, and my first curriculum for God-Shaped Curriculum. How exciting! My hopes are to find a new adventure here in my new city, Charlotte, and enjoy life. But most of all I desire to have breakthroughs in my personal life. I’m excited to be partnering with God on this.

Why am I blabbing on about what I call my #GreatThingsIn18? Well, because I want you to GO-GET-HER! You are worth finding and worth loving. What is it that you want? What are God’s promises over your life? Have you written them down yet? Go-Get-Her! You are worth it! You were born to discover who you are, who God is, and fulfill your purpose in the Earth. And it’s all possible. So Go-Get-Her!

Love, Angel

Virtue… It’s Rare


Who can find a virtuous woman? For her price is far beyond rubies. Proverbs 31:10

Good things can be found, but rare things…well,  you’ll have to do a little digging. There are about 3.7 billion females in the world, that’s 49.6% of the population. So it’s easy to find a woman. But a woman of  Virtue…? Who can find this rare creature? She is said to be more precious than diamonds, which depending on how many carats you have, it can be priced at $10,000 per carat. She is far more precious than Rubies, because of the nature of color, can be priced at $15,000 per carat. And my favorite, the Pearl,  a strand can be sold for $100,000. But a virtuous woman…priceless! She has a value beyond price! 

Why Is Virtue So High Priced

Diamonds, Rubies, and Pearls, Oh My! It’s not the price that amazes me, but the formation of these jewels are astonishing. All formed in hiding. Each of these jewels can stand on its own, sustaining their value, and depending on its owner,  can remain of value if taken care of properly. But imagine a woman placed in the hands of God. Her value increases the longer she stays hidden in Him. The more she learns to know him, the more she learns herself, and begins to develop this characteristic.

Virtue IS Attainable 

Women run from this virtue because they mistake it with perfection. Not one of us is perfect…but God is! When we hide in him, not cowardly, but courageously…we are perfectly formed. 

When you’re hidden in Christ it’s hard to be devalued, because you know who you are. You know you are his. 

 You’re a Masterpiece formed perfectly by him, able to shine and do all he’s created you for. 

For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago. Ephesians 2:10

When you are hidden in Christ your life conforms to moral and right living; all because you are growing to be more and more like Him. So when you come out of hiding…like any valuable jewel…you cannot go unnoticed. 

What Keeps us from Virtue? 

One word… COMMON. People don’t find value in being themselves anymore. God made us to be rare, and to be ourselves.  They’d rather be common. So, they take another route: finding themselves in magazines, TV drama, work, Google, or social media. None of this lasts. You lose your value being someone else, or being something outside of who God intended you to be. The most successful people are those who are themselves. Do the research. No one likes a copy cat. 

Shine

Shine baby shine. You really were made to shine. There’s nothing dim about Virtue. It is brilliant! Virtue is excellent…it excels! It cause your head to be held high. Once you are formed you’ll be displayed beautifully for all the world to behold. Graced. Marveled. Admired. You will shine. And because you’re virtuous you’ll remain humble, modest, bold and beautiful.

Never run from Virtue again. Understand that it is attainable through the working of a great God who sees you, knows you, and lives you!