Posted in anger, root, seasons

“A” is for Angry

I laughed as I blurted out `”A” is for Angry!` I meant every bit of it too! It just sounded so funny when I said it. Probably because I spoke something I had internalized for quite some time. I’ve been studying my personality, and the man teaching told the audience to say an alliterative adjective that describes how you feel and starts with the same letter as your name…without thinking. So, without thinking, and from the abundance of my heart I yelled out, “A” is for Angry 😡 

This isn’t an attempt to collect self pity or attention from you, but when I first started  this blog I told you that this journey we are on won’t always be easy, but always honest. So as my sister, I’m letting you know this is where I am. Not at people, not at God… Its just that this particular season is aggravating and very aggressive. Built and pinned up emotions flaring everywhere, and people only cause the flames to increase, unknowingly, so I try to stay clear, which is nearly impossible, being a minister and all. This is probably one of the reasons God moved me away from all I know to be alone with Him. This season is wrecking me and I can’t win unless I participate in it. It’s something I have to go through, not just get over it. 

As I mentioned above, I’ve been studying my personality and as a person with a phlegmatic/melancholy personality, I need to know what the heck is going on. The unknown is not a unfamiliar place for me but it is a place I can honestly say that I hate. Because I desire to allow God to lead my life and direct me, I’m pretty much aware of the “what” but not the “why”. Not fun! So this season I’m in is ticking me off. If you were a fly on the wall, you’d think this sistah is mad. I am, and I have the slightest idea of what to do but be mad.

This isn’t a bad thing. The Bible tells us 

In your anger sin not. Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry. Ephesians 4:26

God knows that His children get angry. So I do my best to go to the Lord with every issue that arises. I have issues.  And sitting at the root of all my issues is Anger. It just now rising up to the surface. Oh, it’s been there. I was just too afraid to say it.  For example: right now I’m struggling with the fact that I don’t know my life’s purpose. Yes, I serve in the church, I have a blog, I’m in school, live in a nice city,  I’ve made an album… Blah, Blah, Blah…deep inside me i can’t help but think that there’s more. I feel like a human “doing”, not a human”being”.  It angers me that I know I have so much more in me but can’t tap into it. I feel like a slave. Once again this is no one’s fault. I go where I’m needed. But I feel cheated in life and feel like I deserve more. I look at my past and remember how happy I was when I had direction. But now life feels like a waste. Because I know I can ramble I’ll stop here. But these are my truths. I’m not in the mood for optimism or self-help coaching, this is spiritual and honestly only God can help me. Now THAT I am very aware of. 

I tell you all this because I know there is an “A” is for Awesome coming my way, and I can only get there if I walk this season out. There’s no running in this season for me. I remember having a hip flexer injury in high school because of a growth spurt. I was growing too fast.  I had to sit out for a week and couldn’t participate in track practices or meets. Oh I was so mad. I couldn’t run?  I had to walk around and watch everyone else enjoy what I loved so much. And that’s where I am. Dealing with the root anger will one day bring me joy, just like dealing with the healing of my hip flexer injury helped me to have an excellent season.  

I’m not angry because “I am this way”, there was a season for that, but I’m this way because “I’m angry”. That bothers me. 

 Do you see the difference? There was a time where I focused on what was wrong with me, not knowing I was angry.  I have an anger problem right now. The issues can only be solved if the root is dealt with. I pray that we can allow God to deal with our roots so we can live in purpose and on on purpose. Be courageous sis. Don’t be afraid to face what God brings to the surface of your life. Blurt it out! Laugh at it and walk through the process of healing.  One day we can say thank you God for helping me through that season.

 I love you! 

Posted in beauty, Inspiration

The Ugly Season 

🐛 We all have a ugly phases in life. Even the most beautiful people in life. Mine was 6th  to 7th grade. Now for all my optimistic people, maybe I should say “rough”, but since its my blog… 😊. Middle School was an ugly season for me. I didn’t know how to smile. I was scrawny and lanky. Long hair was in and I didn’t have much…until I discovered weave. I’d just added me one single piece to the back and called it a day.  Boys teased me almost every day. I absolutely hated it. I wasn’t sure in who I wanted to be. I was picked on for being a church girl. This stopped around 7th grade when I began to play sports. I got out of my tomboy phase my sophomore year…finally! My body of course changed into a beautiful athletic build, boys gave me attention, and sports gave me a reason to hold my head up. It’s been over 20 years, and I hadn’t felt like that…until this season  of my life. 

Age 37, overweight, searching for purpose. The enemy constantly teasing and accusing. Just the other day I said, “God, I never felt so ugly, so hopeless, and useless.” Now,  I’m not just talking about the lack of beauty, but in the sense of feeling. I feel…unpleasant while everything around me says “beauty”. 

How Does God Respond? 

While walking my puppy,  she discovers that her favorite tree has taken on some new friends. I quickly yank her away not knowing what they were at first. But at closer glance, they were only caterpillars. In which I think are ugly. So I take a picture and post it saying, “Sick 😝🤢“. I thought everyone would agree, but people begin to tell stories only of beauty. This automatically made me feel bad. Am I so consumed with what I feel is a “Ugly Season” that everything around me is now ugly? As a precious friend explained,

I remembered what I had told God the day before.  He heard me, probably laughed or smiled. He loves me enough to send imagery and wisdom from others. That’s my God. Opening my eyes to His reality.  

Yet God has made everything beautiful for its own time. Ecclesiastes 3:11

What a beautiful scripture. Encouragement for those going through the “ugly season”, rough patch, or process. There is a promise on the other side. May God give you a reason to hold your head up high.🦋 

Posted in Uncategorized

I See You

I see you Angel. I see you and I ask “What happened to the sparkle in your eyes?” I see you and I ask, “What happened to that innocent smile?” Pain has pierced you. Rejection has ripped you. But you are still here. And I say, “I see you.” Yes, people have used you. Some may have abused you, but YOU Are Still Here. Some think they know you, others have ignored you, but YOU ARE STILL HERE! And I see you!!! I see you through God’s eyes. I see you through broken dreams. I see you through heartache and I see you through unseen tears. I see you! 

You are STRONG and you are SIGNIFICANT! You are PURE and you are PERSISTENT!  You are CARING and you are very very COURAGEOUS!  You always know how to bounce back! You are a Finisher and you are a Warrior. You were born to win…born in a womb of VICTORY! I SEE YOU!!! You have always been there! 😊 

Posted in Comparison

Scroll Control

I have been reluctant to blog about this, but I was encouraged to share. 😝 I want to be faithful to my blog name… The Journey 2GetHer (To Get Her). I’m really on this journey to find out ALL that I am in Christ. And I’ve made many adjustments in my life. Now, I’ve attempted this journey before, but this is the most consistent I’ve been in it… With the Lord’s help of course. God changed my location…lol! I’ve changed my diet… I am now a practicing Vegetarian. I now have an actual schedule. I’m still working on that budget…halfway there. I workout 4-5 times a week (a miracle). And I have put myself on “Scroll Control”

Scroll Control? 

What the heck is Scroll Control. Well in the season I am in, I don’t have a lot of things I am desiring. I noticed, maybe two months…or three…ago, that a sistah was getting frustrated, angry, jealous, and overly…well, judgemental(that took me a while to type out) as I scrolled through social media. Though I didn’t post about it, but inwardly I did! I mean I felt like God was being so mean to me, not letting me have what I wanted, but noooooooo, He’s giving it to everyone else, and that wasn’t fair. And when I say judgemental, I’d say things like: “Aww, heck naw, she’s getting married? God, she’s like 13!”, or  “What the heck! God, she’s getting married again? Can I have a stinkin turn? Dang!” or “Alright, now this ain’t fair! They ain’t even married, and they get to have babies?” 😳😒 So yeah, that’s the truth. And I’m not that proud to admit it. I wasn’t mad at the peoole, just the situation. Especially when they weren’t happening to me. But that also showed the areas I needed to grow up in. 👀

So something had to change, and change fast. So I put myself on Scroll Control. I completely got off of my favorite… Instagram, and I was only allowed to get on Facebook to check Messages, Post on my page, or scroll only on my page. No Scrolling down my news feed or going on anyone else’s page. (Yes, I could respond to who tags me).  It’s a cure to comparison I tell you that! I miss seeing what people are up too, but it even shows me who my real friends are. 😁 Seriously, who’s calling to check up on me?  I’ve also had the chance to actually call others, rather than scroll and “like”. It’s  been a mental blessing too.

So, anyways, yeah that’s “Scroll Control”… Highly recommended… Father approved. I’m learning to appreciate myself and where God has me. Comparison is a death trap. So though these days it’s not the norm, try it. It’ll change your life!

Posted in #freedomfridays, Freedom, hope


Do something different. Currently I am making adjustments in my life. One of those things are consistency in working out regularly. For two weeks I have worked out 4-5 times a week. Today God said, “How about going running?” And of course I didn’t want to, but lately I have sensed a calling to trust over my life. Meaning if God suggests it…I do it! That includes becoming a vegetarian. He knows why, and I don’t have to know why. Following this has transformed me not just physically but spiritually. There’s freedom in being obedience and trusting God… AND freedom in switching things up and doing something different. I highly recommend it! Plus it shows everyone around me that I love Him! 😊

But I do as the Father has commanded me, so that the world may know that I love the Father. Rise, let us go from here. – John 14:31

Posted in Christian, Inspiration, Love, True Christianity

The Art of Letting Go


There is an art to letting go. It has us going back to the basics of being a believer in Christ Jesus. It has us going back and visiting the moment we said yes. Before we became a know it all in “All things Christ.” Before we got caught up in the wars of true grace, religious spirits, judging, and every other area we feel we can justify ourselves. It’s before we decided that there were more ways to Christ then His perfect sacrifice on the Cross. The more I think about it the more I see how the plate in front of me has become too big for me to eat, when I’ve been warned to slow down.

I’ve been a believer for only 15 years, yes only 15. If you are new at this don’t be discouraged, be very grateful that you don’t have much to unlearn. As for me I am dedicated to learning and unlearning anything that hinders me from having victory in Christ Jesus.  And if you are reading this blog and you aren’t a Christian or a Believer in Christ, hopefully by the time you’re done reading this you’ll understand what’s going on and won’t be hindered in your search for Him.

Quick History Lesson

The Pharisees, also known as the separated ones, started out well with a movement for purity for the things of the Lord, but didn’t care too much for the Gentiles, non-Jewish or heathen. Their zealous fight for that separation turned out to be the very thing Jesus taught against, “love thy neighbor as thyself”. Yes there should be a seperation from the practice of worldly things (Read Romans 12:2), but it should never cause you to hate others. This only leads to pride and self-righteousness. The Sadducees, were men who were particularly wealthy and were in places of political authority. They were against the oral law of the Pharisees and didn’t believe in angels, demons, resurrection or the coming Messiah. And the Scribes, they were a group of people who were well educated and who’s job was to teach and interpret the law. They were also the ones who prosecuted the people who violated the law. This is who Saul, now Paul was. They belonged to the party of Pharisees. The sad thing is,  that they covered up Scriptures with their man-made law, adding to what God had given Moses. Not good! This only added rules, crushing the spirit of the Jewish community.

Do you see where I’m going with this? What you are seeing now is only being revisited by the Christian Community. And I only told you about three groups, but there are many more. In our day they are called denominations. And we rip and tear at each other. Thinking one is better and only one is right. All who claim, “God said…”

I Apologize

Let me first apologize to both you and the new Believers. First to the new Believer: I’m sorry that maybe right now you are utterly confused about what you should be like as a Christian. You are not crazy, you just entered a crazy, yet familiar time even Jesus had to face with the three groups I mentioned above, the Pharisees, Sadducees, and Scribes. All who were God’s chosen people the Israelites. Who throughout time decided to take matters into their own hands.

I apologize for your frustrations. I pray that you are in a community of Believers who simply walk by faith and the authority of Christ. You will know them by their fruit, not just by how many people attend their church, but by the love of the people who attend that church accompanied by the souls won, discipled, and sent out.

In many years where people got it wrong, they are now turning back to how to do this thing called Life in Christ, correctly! You are blessed to not have entered that way of thinking at all. So hold on. Keep walking by faith.

To the non-believer: You are on the outside looking in, saying what the heck is going on? I’m sorry if the name Christian disgusts you or turns you away from the very person you are looking for, and that is Jesus. Our actions are now speaking louder than our words, and we don’t have to even say anything to prove we have ventured far off from the Gospel of Christ.

 Because of our insecurities with each other, we have become the same with you.

I apologize if you have felt rejected or bullied into becoming “One of us” when none of us died for you. Christ died for you, and for me. Look for Him, not us. Now let me clarify something. I say us, because I do represent the church, but please believe me when I say that not everyone in the church are alike. Just like they had the Pharisees, Sadducees, and Scribes back in the days of Jesus, there were still those who truly followed Christ. They weren’t perfect, but they believed in the Perfect One. And these were his disciples. It’s his disciples who changed the world, His disciples who were persecuted for sticking with what He taught and believed, His disciples who even loved on and talked to Saul, now Paul, after he persecuted and killed off their friends and even family members. After God got ahold of him, they showed the love of Christ and welcomed him into the family of faith. He in turn, with the help of Christ, changed history.  So I welcome you and invite you into the greatest love you’ll ever ever know. I pray you can look past the dysfunction of the human being and look to Christ, the Author and finisher of our faith.

In saying all of this. There is an art of letting go and returning to what Christ started in your heart and life. Regardless of how long you have been in this walk you can turn back to what was originally started in you, and this is how:

1. Repent and ask God to forgive you for taking over what He started.

2. Hand the Reigns back over to Him and you get back into the passengers seat.

3. Pick up your Bible and READ IT for yourself, study it, and pray for God to give you wisdom, knowledge, and understanding to be able to live it out.

4. Live it Out


Father I thank you so much for your patience with us. You say you are being patient with us because you don’t want any of us destroyed but you want everyone to repent(Read 2 Peter 3:9). So we repent in how we have dismantled  your truths, each other and those who don’t know You yet. Forgive us for any pride or self-righteousness. You are a good and Perfect God to imperfect people, and You still love us. Help us to turn back to what you started in us and help us to stop trying to go our own way. It’s causing dysfunction and hurt. We are Your body, Your Church, and if one thing is out of place so is everything else. Restore us Lord, in the name of Jesus I pray this,  Amen.

If you are not a believer in Jesus yet, or you’re considering, you can ask Him into your life right now and He will take it from there,  if you let Him. He wants to start a good work in your life. 😊 Just simply ask Him to come in. Then turn from what you do, and face Him, turning your back completely on your way of living. Find you a good Bible believing, Christ following, people loving church. Remember, no one is perfect, just being perfected.